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Entries in Inner Writer (14)

Thursday
19Mar2009

Finding my voice. . .

Ok, so after getting the green light to write a blog for the local online paper, I freaked and did not get back to the editor, so what does the Universe decide to do?

1) Have me run into her in town (for my own benefit since she does not know me)

So I laugh, but still I press on not introducing myself and ignoring her email in my inbox. As I continue to stall and think about anonymity vs the consequences of outing myself in this small town:

2) I lose my voice completely out of nowhere.

Now being someone who used to obsess over EVERYTHING thinking there was a very specific reason that my left big toe hurt, (and consulting Louise Hay) or that a bird flying by was a message just for me, (in my Kabbalah studying days) I realize thankfully that I have reigned that craziness in at least a little.

My sister's first reaction about my loss of voice was that I must have lost in screaming at my husband, and thankfully this time she is mistaken.  Perhaps another perk of losing my voice is that I have to whisper things to him and whether it is a coincidence or not, I am enjoying his company alot more now. 

But oviously I realize the significance of "LOSING MY VOICE" twice in the last 4 months with no illness or cold preceeding it.

 

The Universe is telling me to find my freakin' voice and use it.

Wednesday
11Mar2009

The writer within is manic depressive

Be careful who you share your writing with if your skin is still thin.

With one unsupportive comment from a friend or family member, or worse no response at all, your world can be turned upside-down.

Exercising your writing muscles after not having done so for a while is kind of like signing up for an adult basketball league when you have not played ball since high school.

The voices in your head tell you that you would be better off sitting on the bench in a diaper instead of out on the court, but once you get past those negative feelings, you play your heart out, - sure you make a few mistakes, but then some of your skills come back, and you make a few good passes and score a few baskets. . . and then all of the muscles that have been laying dormant for some time hurt like hell for days.

As I write articles for helium.com and the other users rate them, it sometimes sets my barometer for the day. When my score is up, I am up and when my articles ratings slip I question myself all over again.

Today, despite all that, I took a chance and wrote the Editor of our local paper to see if I could write a blog on their website.

As I hit the send button, my stomach turned, but then after a minute and a personal pep-talk with myself, I was glad that I had pushed past my fear.

Within 15 minutes I had a response from her:

"You are a dream come true.
I love your writing and I would love to have you blog on our site.
Once the economy improves and I can pay you – I would love to bring you on as a full time columnist."

So, of course I am on a manic upswing even if my husband cannot grasp why it is important to me and says there is no future or money in it.

I will show him, I have made $9.17 in the last few weeks for my helium articles.

Tuesday
17Feb2009

My story about a book that changed my life was published. . .

I woke up extremely anxious. Looking around the room for something that might calm and inspire me, my eyes scanned the bookshelf. Though many of the books had accompanied me on numerous moves over the last 10 years, most had never been opened. Knowing that their patience was wearing thin, and feeling that the guidance I was desperately seeking must be on their pages, I chose ‘The Artist’s Way.’

As I read the first chapter, I found my first jewel; “Our tears prepare the ground for our future growth.” If that was true, it was a wonder that I had not grown into a National Forest by now. Even so, I knew there was some truth in it. When the book asked me to set time aside 15 minutes each morning to write ‘morning pages’, I purchased a journal with a bright smiling sun on its cover to inspire brilliance and obliged, even though I knew that most of the pages would be filled with verbal diarrhea. It had been years since I had written, though in my heart I knew that I was, and always would be a writer. As I thought of ideas to plan the weekly ‘artist date’ with myself, visions of sitting in a romantic restaurant all alone made me laugh out loud. But, as I read the first week’s exercises on creative recovery, protecting the artist child within, and giving yourself permission to be a beginner, I was sold. I knew that if I continued to run away from my creative side that it would find me around a very dark corner one day.

After a few playful and intense weeks together, I found myself falling in love with ‘The Artist’s Way’, and I knew that I wanted to introduce it to my parents. Through its words and questions each week, it inspired me to look at the past, present and future in a whole new way. Each morning I opened the book and read a passage or quote that would begin my thoughts and writings for the day. No matter what was going on in my life, the message was always poignant, and the writing proved cathartic.

“The Artist’s Way” focus is to help you re-discover your creative self, and everyone who crosses its path is better for knowing it. Its brilliance can be seen by anyone who wants to remember or reconnect with their authentic self, goals or dreams. It informs us that; “To kill your dreams because they are irresponsible is to be irresponsible to yourself.” It invites you throw caution to the wind and enjoy the journey wherever it may lead. It reminds us that “each of us has an inner dream that we can unfold if we will just have the courage to admit what it is”, and that “The truth revealed by action in the direction of your dreams is that there is room for all of us.” It even advises us to “call fear by its right name.” In other words, it does not let you off of the hook, however creative your excuse.

To me, the best books are alive, growing and breathing. They communicate with us in special and different ways each time we read them. Many become the backdrop for defining moments and speak directly to us at the perfect time with the perfect message. I can honestly say that over the years since we first met, ‘The Artist’s Way has done all of these, and in addition, supported me, and kicked me in the behind each time I needed it, earning a prominent place on each bookshelf.

It now sits next to my 14 month old sons’ books, and although he mostly just wants to eat his books, I know in my heart that one day, he too will have his favorites that will support, intrigue, affect and foster his imagination. I hope that one day, “The Artist’s Way’ or another special book will call out to him in the same way. Perhaps if he reads that “What we really want to do is what we are really meant to do” at an early age, his path will be more direct than mine.

 

Link to it on Amazon in case you are so inspired.

Tuesday
10Feb2009

Ad it up

I put ad links on my site when I started this blog

I did this to:

1. Learn how to do it

2. Experiment and see if and how my blog might be ‘defined’

3. Open my mind to the possibility of generating some income with my writing so I could have an excuse to one day quit my day job to write fulltime as I have always dreamed of doing. (Thankfully I finally realized that to set that in motion, I might want to start writing every day, or a lot more than a few times a year, and make and stick to a plan that might just help me get my head out of my a#$* and actually make it a possibility)

Although the jury is out on the third for now, the initial results for the other two are in, and so far I have found that:

Apparently I must write a blog about legalizing marijuana, favoring internet porn and pushing prescription drugs, as well as offer credit reports so folks can get the ok to go ahead and over extend themselves even more, and finally I must be an advocate for other folks to start their own blog to ensure that the word on all of the above will reach more people.

Perhaps, I need another lesson on setting up the ads....

and perhaps I need to have a few  glasses of red wine and rent ‘They Live’ this week.

Monday
09Feb2009

Mood Ring or Mood Swing

Man, I am annoyed with myself.  I have turned into a bit of a whiny girl in my own head. Thankfully I have spared most people from having to listen to that voice, but I must have left some crumbs on the kitchen floor or she would not still be hanging around getting my attention.

As I sit here at the library writing, I am surrounded by hundreds of books, most of which are telling me that there is a place for my story, yet some are mocking and taunting me trying to convince me that my story isn't that great. I know in my heart that I should just move those books to a different section so they will feel as lost as they are hoping to make me feel.

What is the difference between success and failure?

Perhaps just persevering past all of your own whiny bullshit.